The whole universe did something bad. They prepared an evil plan for me. It was so perfect that even I don't get to choose what I want for myself. Who am I to get the best options.... who am I?

The timer started. It was up to me to do what I want: Laugh, have fun, love, be selfish, childish & dance to the groove of life. But I did hurt people along the way... and I, myself, was hurt too. The feeling of being 'judged' and 'looked down' upon and believing in what others say about myself that I'm definitely not is one of the most hurtful things that happened to me. I cried.. a lot. I can't stop the tears from falling form my eyes. Not wanting to let go does not tell you that you are allowed not to. There are so many things to consider, and when you think about it, what you want is considered as 'selfishness' in all aspects. I continue to hide from the dark shadows that are trying to catch me, slowly swallowing the whole of me. I can't escape, there's no way out. Because whatever I do, they will always get that chance where I can't runaway anymore. That's how it is. Life is cruel and that's the reality.